Random Thoughts

I wonder if it is like that because the opportunity has not presented itself before in his relationships with others or because he is genuinely into me and wants it to be just us. It is confusing because of the fact that I am still married as far as the courts are concerned. I am being unfair by expecting a just us relationship. I guess I didn't trust the insult to be anything but an insult. Maybe he is waiting for the next thing to come along? Our conversation this afternoon was kind of weird and once again I need to think before I tease. I am happy with us and am not looking at being approached by anyone else for a relationship that is anywhere close to fwb or anything other than just friends. I wonder if the opportunity presented itself to him if he would choose to develop a more than friends relationship with one of his friends. Strange that I can reflect on this subject without crying. It is possible that I am stressed beyond emotion and am floating in a daze. I know it would hurt if he did choose something like that and I hope he respects me enough to tell me beforehand if it is like that. He seems to have more confidence but I guess I don't really know that for sure since I don't get to see him interact with many people socially. It was cute when he put his hand on my thigh in front of his roommate. And he was funny when we were hanging with her but that is the only thing I have to go by. I just think he is sweet and mysterious and aggravating and lovable. Being the possessive person that I have always been, I am surprised at how little his group of friends being mostly girls bothers me. I think the difference is that I don't know them or much about him and I guess the history is lacking and too bothersome to really care about. I am not used to that. Most everyone I know, I have known forever and any guy I have dated has pretty much been linked to my tight circle of friends, which was difficult. I am seeming to like this way better, gives a person a fresh start without all the history to wade through and worry about. I enjoy learning about his past and meeting people he knows when he is ready to share them but I like how it is relaxed and separate for now.