Random Thoughts

Really kind of a bad day for me, nothing bad in particular happening just not feeling okay with anything right now. I am struggling to keep it together. I wish I could blame hormones but I think I am just mentally tired of the struggle. I often wonder how I can love others just the way they are, just as they are, even when they are hurting me? Then I wonder how God does it...how can he handle us continually hurting him and still love us? I guess that is why He is who He is. The ultimate achievement is to model ourselves after him and try our best to be better people. Just not easy to choose to love people for how they are and not seek to punish them when they do something that hurts you. It could even be something that isn't necessarily always directed at you, I mean they would do it to anyone without censorship, but it is hard to feel that you are not the target. I am trying to just live with who he is and what makes him him.