Random Thoughts

Today Linda had her baby so now I can quit being anxious. A baby girl is so exciting! It was a good day all around. I was so happy to see him this morning, it is amazing how just seeing him is calming and makes me happy :) It was a long weekend without him. I wonder if I will not be as anxious when we are together together, if he will allow it. I am just trying to think that he is simple and not in a mean way. He just exists the best he can and that I shouldn't read too much drama into anything. I hope he likes me as much as I like him. He just makes feel complete and loved. I am scared that me or the children will make him uncomfortable and scare him off for permanent terms. I never know how to deal with things that happen so fast. On a family note, I am really tired of being a kicking board for the people that have bad things happen to them. I often ask why I am the one that has to bear the brunt of all things. I am more than sick of hearing that I fail miserably as a daughter, granddaughter, sister, wife...UGH! I wonder if I can just be me.