Random Thoughts

I think it is funny how we all have that friend that we look at as "ours". You know the one that really is nondescript but that we are so used to having in our lives that when they find a special someone we get possessive all of a sudden? I have been laughing because this seems to be happening to my special guy and his roommate. She has been living with him for awhile after working with him for a few years at the same place. She is cute and funny, but a little strange, and she seems to feel that she is losing him even though they only have a friends relationship. Now that he has introduced us, she has been having awkward moments and not knowing where she fits in or is wondering if maybe she should have tried to have a more than friends relationship with him. She is now making him dinner a lot, or taking him out to dinner, or having him help her cook. It cracks me up because I had the same thing happen to me before with a guy. I started dating him and all the girls in his class became hostile towards me. But none of them showed any interest in him before, only when I came on the scene did they get their 'ownership' on. I remember it baffling him at the time. He always wondered why...if they were so into him...that no one let him know about it. I hope she figures out her personal life soon because it is awkward and I don't like that she feels uncomfortable. Guys seem oblivious to this stuff or they just don't care, but as girls we know that it is not the best feeling when you think maybe you missed out on your chance because someone saw something that maybe you didn't in this person. I have many guy friends and there were a couple that I felt like that about and then there were some that felt that way about me. I do have some regrets with some of those guy friends because I didn't take the extra step to make something happen. Then again I didn't want to lose the close friendship I had with them by dating them and having that awkward break up moment. It was nicer just to stay friends. I think my special guy is seeing some opportunities that maybe he didn't explore before present themselves now that he has me in his life. People are noticing him now or maybe he is just getting enough confidence to explore avenues that he wouldn't have before me. I like building up his self confidence and although it may backfire on me, I hope that I can enjoy the fact that I knew him and appreciate our time together. I feel today that I am growing towards that place where it was just awesome to have the experience.