Random Thoughts

Well last night I believe sealed the deal. After not coming home until 3 am I think he finally understands. I wish that I could do this without hurting him but it is wrong to expect me to be something I was so long ago. I don't expect it of him so I am hoping he can go on without me. I am scared for the children because they need him so much and I just don't see a way to continue on with him and not destoying him and me. I don't want to live like that any more. I am just wondering if I will regret letting him go. I am not thinking I will miss him in love but that I will regret hurting him because of the children. Kind of a hurtful day for all of us. I am not looking forward to the bitterness that will ensue but I think I will be happier. I am going to seek spiritual guidance on this and hope for the best. I don't want to lose my relationship with God and am hoping there is a way to be happy for everyone.